OK so i have this doctor ( therapist) i have?

I am sure others have felt this before, and in psychology there is even a term for what you are feeling, "trauma bond" this comes about when you empathisize with someone causing you trama or you bond with someone helping you through a trauma. you need to break off your sessons with this therapist. Give yourself some time away from him. If you still have the hots for him after say 6 months, then look him up soscally. If your relationship dosen't revolve around him counceling you and you both willing to break up his merrage. go for it.