Everyone keeps saying I'm anorexic!?

Hun you might be at the start of an eating disorder if you say, i quote " i constantley check to see how big i look.... I just see areas that need to be thinner... i feel even bigger" oh i can go on with quotes. When everyone else says your to skinny & you say im to big this and that need to be fixed isnt very healthy either. i mean laxatives **** what are you thinking thats why your pale, sick, tired, blacking out, fainting. Just because you say i dont have an eating disorder im not in denial i dont think im fat dont mean its true it shouldnt take much convincing if it were. Why? How? When? Why do you feel "big" or "fat"? How does any of this make sense to you? When will you be happy with yourself? Think about it.